Transparency Part 2: Reverse it

 

Do you ever know when you’re being cheated, lied to, or ignored but you end up choosing to ignore the transgression in hopes that it's a small bump down a long steady path?  Ever feel like someone’s taunting you, straight to your face, but you can’t confirm it, so you simply ignore the comment and just keep the conversation rolling?  Don't, you'd be surprised how accurate your instincts are.

Your mind, heart, and animalistic self are three separate entities within.  Froyd had it right with the id, ego, and super ego.  Your ego, or your heart, most likely drives you.  But, when necessary the other two will take control.  You should always embrace them, and never ignore logic and instinct especially when they're working together

My last article, Transparency & Honesty, was written by my ego.  And while it accurately portrayed a truthful message, the reaction that inspired me was all wrong.

In retrospect, I was not in fault.

I was being transparent, open and honest.  However my friend was lying and belittling me in hopes that I’d eventually take the hint and walk away.  He most likely thought it was the smartest and easiest way to get rid of me while avoiding a confrontation.  Little did he know was that all he had to do was ask.  His subjective experience to our conversations wasn’t overtly visible.  And he was overestimating how well he was telegraphing his thoughts and emotions.  He was attempting to play a game with me—and was doing a poor job at it.  I was getting confused from the mix signals and he was getting more and more frustrated.

In the end, he snapped.  He decided to make the confrontation in an extremely emotional way.  Little did he know that at this point my confusion had put an extreme dampener on my crush.  I was thinking of him as more of a loose friend—of someone I was interested in getting to know but had no investment in.

He made a fool of himself publicly.  And decided to throw our excuse of a relationship into the eye of the masses around us.  For some reason, he didn’t expect me to laugh and walk away.