Wondrous Nostalgitastical Nightmare Dreamscape

 

Never in my life have I been so naive to assume that my problems are unique and more significant than others.  However, I will certainly admit that I am egotistical enough to find it rare, though not impossible, that people’s problems are of greater scale or magnitude than my own.

While addressing a personal problem, I eventually come to realize that my own issues are effects from an underlying cause, and I discover another hidden layer of my emotional self.  Changing my point of view causes that problem to become miniscule. While the problem used to be something big that I thought would have drastic consequences on my life, I can now brush it off and let it go.

However I’m still not free of that initial problem.  I still feel a strong connection to it after the realization of being an effect.  I am more aware of it, and while it no longer bothers me as much as it used to, it still has a deep emotional impact upon my psyche through the nostalgia brought on by previous reactions.

It is my belief that nostalgia is the most powerful emotion available to the human psyche.  Mainly, because it takes you and all of your experiences and between the original event and the current one and condenses them to make it seem as if no time has passed.  You can stand in front of your elementary school, almost twenty years after attendance and (if your lucky enough) recall and re-experience the original emotions that are attached to those memories from so long ago.  Nostalgia can bring up anger, love, or anxiety and it can do it just as well as any new experience. 

I tend to crave Nostalgia—simply because it is a reaction I don’t understand yet.  Many people tend to accuse me of living in the past, however I’m probably one of the most forward thinking radicals you know (I just know when to suppress my opinions so I don’t appear crazy).  It’s not the past that excites me, it’s not the memory of what happened, and it’s not that I think that nothing in the present can be as exciting as it was in the past.  What it is, is that what happened changed me, and inspired a longing reaction that I cannot control or anticipate.  I just like to remember that once in a while, and to experience it in full, to remind myself of what I once was and what I am now.  For me, nostalgia is the best way to compare a snapshot of my old self to my current one.